14/11/2009
Haiis...
Has xiaowen really came to this world?? i just feel worried, happy and sad..
xiaowen came at the wrong time.. keeping xiaowen will be an very big burden for him.. i dont wish to keep him by my side cause of xiaowen.. i just dont know what should i do.. i know he loves kids alots.. but.. so do i.. hais... i dont wanna see him so xingku.. this few days although he smiles,joke pampered me like de past but....his eyes has betrayed himself.. i dont know what should i do.. keep it? i would like too.. but... i dont keep it im a murderer.. hais.. people want also dont have.. but now i.... keep it or not??
hubby.. let deardear decide ba... but deardear still want to hear hubby de zhen xing hua.. i want to hear what hubby thinks,feel and thoughts... this is what i want from hubby only.. i want hubby to share all this with deardear.. hao mahs??
deardear still loves hubby loads... it hasnt been fade a little bits of for you...
counting down 2more days to 2months anniversary...
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
Blogging after such a long time...
Had so much to blogg...
Alot of happy things happen and also unhappiness..
have went loads of things with hubbyhubby although we have only gone through 1month plus.. it seems to be so long..
i know he is a good guy.. buy sometimes im really thinking does he know me well?? or should i say i dont even understand him..??
am i right to say that??
i dont know...
crying is really an saddening thing..
i dont easily cried infront of anyone.. this is the first time i cried infront of him.. he really freak me off that day in mustafa..
what i was going to do is just to buy that perfume for him and thats all..
how things happen.......
at first i and hubby reached mustafa and went shopping together while waitting for his gd bro jason reach.. we went to the perfume department and i realise a branded perfume for guys smell really great!! i told him i wanted to buy for him as he was saying is too expensive.. he realied dont want.. he dont want me to buy for him.. so my mind tell me i want to buy!! although it wasnt for me but i just simply loves to hugg him! so went korkor reached i told korkor to buy it secretly as i will pass him de money later on.. but out of the sudden he raise his voice telling me to pass him de money.. and hubby heard.. so hubby was asking what money..?? korkor jiu tell him i borrow money to him... guess what happen??!!!! unexpectedly hubby scolded me!!! he hasnt been so fierce to me! he has been an tender guy all this while! at that moment i was stunt and sad.. my heart boke into pieces... i wanna burst out and cry! but im in public.. i cant! i swollwed everything down.. he then asked korkor bout whats happening.. then korkor told him.. so he rushed infront of me and said sorry.. but that kinda feeling is such terrible!! so i take up my guts to walkk alone after showing korkor which is the perfume and walk alone in mustafa! i dont expect have such guts! in the end he smsed me... after that he called me and ask me where am i then i told him where am i... once i saw him hugged him and cried! i hasnt have such feelings and reaction in public before! my heart feels really pain... but still i forgived him..
today02/11/2009
My off day..
bringing mummy meiimeii and meiimeii daddy to eat lunch at kallang..having shushii..cost me a bomb!100+..
but is okie.. not always..
while eating korkor called and ask me where am i?? i said i was in kalland after that i will call him.. see what time i ends for my luch..till then..i was bloated already after eating..sending mms to tell whats happening to me suituation etc... while i went down for a stick and went to de arcade.. seeing so many soft-toy!! saw an guiiguii as i rest wrist type.. so my mind told me no matter how i must catch for hubby due to he always use computer want him to be more relax while using com.. so i went to change to coins.. never expect i only spend 3bucks to catch that guiiguii.! so happy and excited to pass to hubby! after that i rush to clementi hoping before 5.30 i would reached,but once i reached there the clinic was closed!! i got frastrated as i rush down in cab! so called korkor and scold him! is okie for this thing.. i scoldscold jiu hao liaos.. so i stayed in clementi to pass my time there waitting for the time hubby to off work.. but i didnt bring my medicient didnt eat my dinner awaiting hubby to have dinner with him as this week we will be only be seeing and spending together for 3days! i will definately miss him badly!! he smsed me where is his deardear.. i replied clementi and straight away put into my pocket..didnt expect that sms is not sent! finally 9pm! i was so urge to look for my hubby! so i rush to imm.. it was damn hot and irratated! but i know after sweating after tired for 5mins later i can see my hubby le! tolarate awhile... how would i know when we close our shopp reaching main door of imm he told me he meeting korkor... i was like....... fine... you go and meet lor.. i was thinking why am i so stupid rotting in clementi for nothing while rotting there is such boring and tired... making myself so tired and hungry for nothing... is okie then.. im fine with it then.. after that we reached interchange he said he will sms me later.. he didnt even hugg or kissed me!! fine... i got very sad and angry to be frank.. why am i so stupid??? off day i dont rest or stayed at home instead of doing such acts?? so i went to jurong point and have a walk while buying some stuffs for home needs... i actually drop tear there.. why things will happen?? why is always like that?? he promised me not to hurt me not to make me cried.. in the end?? hurt is a must?? tear roll down is a must?? or should i just say im stupld! last msg you sent to me "later hungry go down da bao things to eat ok? and dont forget to ur medicient" isit too late to show yr care and concern to me?? is either you changed or i changed... cause of you i can give up loadsloads of things.! i can dont meet my jie as often as the past cause i cant affort to lose you cant stop missing you.. but you?? as i said i loves you loads as you DONT love me that much anymore... my heart isnt that complete anymore mike.. you broke it.......
Alot of happy things happen and also unhappiness..
have went loads of things with hubbyhubby although we have only gone through 1month plus.. it seems to be so long..
i know he is a good guy.. buy sometimes im really thinking does he know me well?? or should i say i dont even understand him..??
am i right to say that??
i dont know...
crying is really an saddening thing..
i dont easily cried infront of anyone.. this is the first time i cried infront of him.. he really freak me off that day in mustafa..
what i was going to do is just to buy that perfume for him and thats all..
how things happen.......
at first i and hubby reached mustafa and went shopping together while waitting for his gd bro jason reach.. we went to the perfume department and i realise a branded perfume for guys smell really great!! i told him i wanted to buy for him as he was saying is too expensive.. he realied dont want.. he dont want me to buy for him.. so my mind tell me i want to buy!! although it wasnt for me but i just simply loves to hugg him! so went korkor reached i told korkor to buy it secretly as i will pass him de money later on.. but out of the sudden he raise his voice telling me to pass him de money.. and hubby heard.. so hubby was asking what money..?? korkor jiu tell him i borrow money to him... guess what happen??!!!! unexpectedly hubby scolded me!!! he hasnt been so fierce to me! he has been an tender guy all this while! at that moment i was stunt and sad.. my heart boke into pieces... i wanna burst out and cry! but im in public.. i cant! i swollwed everything down.. he then asked korkor bout whats happening.. then korkor told him.. so he rushed infront of me and said sorry.. but that kinda feeling is such terrible!! so i take up my guts to walkk alone after showing korkor which is the perfume and walk alone in mustafa! i dont expect have such guts! in the end he smsed me... after that he called me and ask me where am i then i told him where am i... once i saw him hugged him and cried! i hasnt have such feelings and reaction in public before! my heart feels really pain... but still i forgived him..
today02/11/2009
My off day..
bringing mummy meiimeii and meiimeii daddy to eat lunch at kallang..having shushii..cost me a bomb!100+..
but is okie.. not always..
while eating korkor called and ask me where am i?? i said i was in kalland after that i will call him.. see what time i ends for my luch..till then..i was bloated already after eating..sending mms to tell whats happening to me suituation etc... while i went down for a stick and went to de arcade.. seeing so many soft-toy!! saw an guiiguii as i rest wrist type.. so my mind told me no matter how i must catch for hubby due to he always use computer want him to be more relax while using com.. so i went to change to coins.. never expect i only spend 3bucks to catch that guiiguii.! so happy and excited to pass to hubby! after that i rush to clementi hoping before 5.30 i would reached,but once i reached there the clinic was closed!! i got frastrated as i rush down in cab! so called korkor and scold him! is okie for this thing.. i scoldscold jiu hao liaos.. so i stayed in clementi to pass my time there waitting for the time hubby to off work.. but i didnt bring my medicient didnt eat my dinner awaiting hubby to have dinner with him as this week we will be only be seeing and spending together for 3days! i will definately miss him badly!! he smsed me where is his deardear.. i replied clementi and straight away put into my pocket..didnt expect that sms is not sent! finally 9pm! i was so urge to look for my hubby! so i rush to imm.. it was damn hot and irratated! but i know after sweating after tired for 5mins later i can see my hubby le! tolarate awhile... how would i know when we close our shopp reaching main door of imm he told me he meeting korkor... i was like....... fine... you go and meet lor.. i was thinking why am i so stupid rotting in clementi for nothing while rotting there is such boring and tired... making myself so tired and hungry for nothing... is okie then.. im fine with it then.. after that we reached interchange he said he will sms me later.. he didnt even hugg or kissed me!! fine... i got very sad and angry to be frank.. why am i so stupid??? off day i dont rest or stayed at home instead of doing such acts?? so i went to jurong point and have a walk while buying some stuffs for home needs... i actually drop tear there.. why things will happen?? why is always like that?? he promised me not to hurt me not to make me cried.. in the end?? hurt is a must?? tear roll down is a must?? or should i just say im stupld! last msg you sent to me "later hungry go down da bao things to eat ok? and dont forget to ur medicient" isit too late to show yr care and concern to me?? is either you changed or i changed... cause of you i can give up loadsloads of things.! i can dont meet my jie as often as the past cause i cant affort to lose you cant stop missing you.. but you?? as i said i loves you loads as you DONT love me that much anymore... my heart isnt that complete anymore mike.. you broke it.......
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